I've never felt so attractive as I do lately. My skin looks great, my hair is longer, and my confidence is pretty good. I'm not lonely. I'm content. for now.

uhhhhhh... didn't see this happening. i'm feeling shitty about this other boy.

i had a great day. sephora pj party was actually so fun. I won a bunch of stuff and hung out with some awesome crazy fun girls.

wen't pretty well.
he's a cutie, and he's into me. this could go good.

...just a little bit embarrassed about what i did this morning. Me and him will always have that terrible attraction to each other, and it's disgusting.

I have a date on Tuesday. Maybe it will go well. Maybe I'll want to end life. Either way, it'll keep me occupied and give me another story to tell; which I've been needing lately.

this is crazy. Barack Obama has ended the Bush reign. It's strange. I'm proud. And nervous. Also scared that he'll be shot any minute. That would suck.

ew i swear sometimes i feel like i have bi-polar. The last entry I wrote just made me go wtf. Though I get really stressed, I don't because I miss a relationship. I actually did wake up a little bummed this morning, but I think it's just cause I have nothing to do today. My life died down right when Halloween ended. I'm sick of these boys that I just don't care about, I want nothing to do with them. It's not that I'm writing off a relationship... I just want to actually be attracted to someone. I'm not even attracted to double d anymore. Saw some pictures of him and it made me wanna vom. I actually think he's quite gross. It's sad but whatever. Shit happens.

I'll be 21 soon, and I will be out at bars and parties more often. Meeting someone is going to happen regardless of it being now or much later. I just have no patience.