ew i swear sometimes i feel like i have bi-polar. The last entry I wrote just made me go wtf. Though I get really stressed, I don't because I miss a relationship. I actually did wake up a little bummed this morning, but I think it's just cause I have nothing to do today. My life died down right when Halloween ended. I'm sick of these boys that I just don't care about, I want nothing to do with them. It's not that I'm writing off a relationship... I just want to actually be attracted to someone. I'm not even attracted to double d anymore. Saw some pictures of him and it made me wanna vom. I actually think he's quite gross. It's sad but whatever. Shit happens.

I'll be 21 soon, and I will be out at bars and parties more often. Meeting someone is going to happen regardless of it being now or much later. I just have no patience.