life is pretty nice. I feel better without Jeff in it. I'm taking it more of a death than a regular breakup. I feel like the Jeff I loved is dead, and there's nothing I can do about it. I'll always love that boy and he'll always be in my heart and my memories. The new Jeff, I absolutely hate.. so sometimes i'll get sad for my loss but I'll never cry wishing for him to be mine.

So wah wah done talking about it. So much attention coming at me from friendships, to boy interests. It's great. I love being able to call my friends and just go out for a walk, a party, or a sleep over. It's also awesome talking to some new kids, as well as some old. Hang outs planned, numbers exchanged. Back in the game and loving it. What makes it so much better, is I don't settle and I sure as hell am not a dirtbag about it. Life is always kept busy and it's great. I feel like a free spirit again. I finally feel 20.