It's insane how quickly I lose grip of reality and spin off into an empty world. I feel like I lost my life. I was safe with him. He looked over me and took care of me without even realizing it. I don't want to go back to the person I used to be. I don't want to find comfort from a bottle or from anyone that can make me feel wanted. I hate how emotionally fucked up I am. I suppose it's the consequence of being a hopeless romantic, or just hopeless.