"I miss Jeff like crazy right now. It's nuts how I'll never ever get enough of him. I'm always worried he's going to tire of me soon."
"I dont even know wtf to say in here anymore. No more thoughts that need to be poured out. I'm not sad, and no need to constantly write how happy i am :]"
"I miss Jeff. I could cry everytime I think about how much it hurts not being with him. I'm so in love it's crazy. So happy. This is forever. :)

fuck me, right?
I have to make him "obey" me to actually want to spend time with me.
i fucking hate my life. I fucking hate it. I really do. I've cried for 3 fucking months straight. I fucking hate myself. What kind of fucking loser takes this? Other girlfriends get the world. I used to have the world. I have nothing except 3 hours of him texting his stupid fucking friends and making other plans as if he can't wait to get the fuck out. I was supposed to be the most important, I used to be important. I understand he missed his friends, but I don't get why you have to spend every fucking minute with them.

Oh my God, I want to go back in time and freeze it.
"It's crazy when I watch other couples. I feel like I'm the only person in the world lucky enough to experience this feeling, it just feels so... exclusive and special."
I can't believe it felt like this. I forgot. I really fucking forgot. Now i'm jealous when I see other couples."
"used to understand the term "bros before hoes" but we were young. Of course friendships were more important than relationships, because there wasn't a much of a chance of staying with that person permanently. Imagine your father using that phrase, putting a 'friend' ahead of your mother, his wife. wow, SHITTY. I'd never, ever, ever, ever put a friend in front of my one true love. I'm not saying my friendships that ARE worth something isn't important to me, because my friendship with Nicole is. I would never put Jeff in front of her feelings or Nicole in front of Jeff's. Both are equally important to me, but seriously, fuck everybody else. The rest of you are scum."

I FEEL LIKE A FUCKING RETARD. I WAS SO STUPID. WHY DIDNT HE TELL ME HE DIDN'T FEEL THE SAME BACK THEN?